This piece is untitled and I think it’s more interesting left unexplained. I believe energy is important in whatever your making. Most of this year has been about explaining difficult and complex feelings and ideas. Heavy emotions and pushing through. I always thought a real artist could make use of whatever materials were at hand to make something good. Recently I’ve been researching materials to find supplies that are just fun to use. I love these Posca markers I just bought. Making the process fun for yourself is becoming more important to me. Positive feedback loops, so i’m Spending more time in the process. Absolutely there are artists that can make great art out of anything. How I’m thinking about it now is “ what are the right tools for me, right now?” Another way of saying that is “What is making this process fun and exciting ?”

-Dec. 4th 2020

Some times I think about Japan’s Lost Generation. The concept of millions of people jobless and single has been with me for awhile. The effect of Japan’s Lost Generation gets touched on in Anime and I love Tetsuya Ishida’s paintings. The Loneliness is relatable in a strange kind of way. Since quarantine in America has started and continued I’ve thought about this group of people often. Many people who have homes and jobs are isolated with the Internet being the main connection to the outside world. I think more people understand the patterns and lifestyles of introverts and hermits more than ever before. Often some could arrive to this pattern by unforeseen circumstances. I wanted to make a piece which is really about Isolation and thirst for connection more than anything else. I feel as if this type of Loneliness was already present in American culture and was amplified by quarantine. Now it really is on the Internet for people to connect with each other. Going forward I wonder how people can truly use the Internet for personal connections that go beyond the light of the screen. For me I notice how much more I appreciate random small conversation with people.

How can the Internet be leveraged for better relationships?

Lately I’ve been doing daily sketches on my tablet in photoshop. Here is a sketch that I particularly enjoyed.

“ Elena was beginning to realize quarantine with Terry had been a bad Idea. Not only was he a Narcissist, but he obviously had unresolved emotional issues. Elena was older now and she realized that this said something about her. In this moment she realized how much of this Isabel took on.”

With these digital pieces that I’ve been making I like to start with a sketch first. I’ve been using the old surrealist practice of automatic drawing to make doodles or sketches. Then I take the sketches I like and start infusing narrative and structure into them. - May 10th 2020

Just Finished updating my Website. I’m not sure why setting up paths and visual galleries takes so long. Now it’s done. My clothes and my portfolios are now available to check out. Another Step. Next is bringing out New Pieces this Summer. - May 6th 2020

The piece became something Different.

April - 2020

“Avery was starting to feel the walls closing in. He was starting to wonder if he should take the money he’s been keeping in the mattress and turn it into bitcoins?”

I’ve been messing around starting to mix my drawing with digital elements. more to come…

I’m out in California. I don’t have a full studio at the moment, so i’ve Been working on digital designs and mock ups.

I post a few to my Instagram, and the alternates to my tumblr.

The inspiration has been coming from multiple sources. This design comes from the idea relating to beauty coming from broken places

This piece is about absorption, identity, and uncertainty.

 This piece is trying to capture some of that essence of not knowing what's next on a journey.

One process I like to do is make a line art Stencil for a piece. I usually have some backgrounds that I've made hanging out.  I've rediscovered experimenting.

Usually I do a print of the Stencil in a light color on whatever background. Then  I proceed to paint in the spaces. It's sorta like marking my own paint by numbers.

It takes some time and if I were making true editions it would be pointless, but since I'm not right now - it's fun. After I've painted in the spaces I come back with the screen or Stencil and print the darkest color for the line art. 

Last weekend was the first time I worked on creating a small edition all at once. It took about three to four days. I make my pieces with 11x17" screens and the garment is already constructed. The process is time consuming, but having all the pieces together and ready is a nice feeling. I have several designs planed out and currently I'm looking for a manufacturer.

I just finished printing this sweater tonight. The pattern is derived from a stylized bird feather. I mixed a steel colored water based ink for the cotton/poly blend. I'll prolly make a few more of these before I post it to my shop.  - Jan 11th 2019

Lately I've been asking myself is this the right thing for me over and over again.

For Everything.

Here is a drawing that I did 2018 that I just found. I was having strange experiences with old friends and a lot of bizarre thoughts that did not feel like they belonged to me.

Some of that energy was tied to desperate attempts to make money. I feel that sometimes money weaves a spell that creates anxiety. Which is why the drawing is called "See thru tha Money".